Day 28: done
I didn’t write last night. Lately, I’ve been documenting my days on this no-sugar challenge that I’m doing with my mom (who, by the way, I don’t think has made it a single day so far…) I’ve been doing it at the end of each day.
But, I discovered that I don’t always write about succeeding or failing at staying away from the sugar for that day. It’s become more of a little mini daily accountability diary for whatever came up for me that day.
It’s interesting. And it is really reminding me of my Mexico experience because while I was there I documented each day by number. I think I got to 36. And it is really making my insides fight a bit. Part of me wants to share more about that experience and the other part is really trying to protect me and not share–not yet.
So, last night I didn’t write. I didn’t feel like sharing.
I had also just returned from finally seeing Inception. I went alone. Although I often need a buddy to justify a movie outing, I prefer seeing them alone. Unless it is a comedy…because it’s always more fun to laugh with someone you know.
But after seeing that movie and all the stuff in there about subconscious, I think my subconscious got scared and felt a bit threatened…like it was about to be exposed or I had revealed to much of it lately or something. So it was like a stubborn toddler and did NOT want to come out at all with any of it’s wonderful innocent creative beautiful vulnerable feelings.
It’s still feeling a bit threatened this morning. But also I can tell it’s working on something. I’d say I don’t know what it is, but that would be a lie. I do and am choosing not to put it into words yet, because it is still forming…